Christmas Time

There hasn't been anything too exciting going on, but I have tried to get the kids into the Christmas season. We saw the temple lights, bough a singing/dancing Santa that the kids love to play with, made lots of holiday treats (Cocoa Apple Spice Cake, fudge, sugar cookies in the shape of Gingerbread people & snowflakes), and set up two Christmas trees. My kids have also enjoyed trying on the stockings and all the santa/elf hats. I know this season is about more than the lights and goodies, but they make me so happy and I LOVE to give gifts though I am sure that my giving is more fun than people's receiving my silly things. These last few days before Christmas I hope that we can get focused more on Christ and feel the peace and love that comes with that. Forgotten Carols CDs, reading about the birth of Christ from the scripture, and quiet moments of reflection (when the kids are asleep) here I come.

The following are just some pictures of the kids from December, either being cute or being Christmas-y. Enjoy!

 Jacob cuddled up to Robin after she was asleep and fell asleep himself with his arm draped over her. So cute! Too bad they can't be so loving during the day like that.

These are the sugar cookies we decorated and I do mean we, I didn't do all of them this time. Robin shook the the sprinkles and Jacob's cookies are the ones with not much frosting. I even came up with some names for some, can you find them? Adam & Eve....Daddy (Matt)....there is a ghost...some cute little girls: Robin & Laura. Merry Christmas everyone. Hug on your loved ones, smile at some strangers, and sing at least one carol with gusto.

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Let me whine where no one reads. I would blab this on Facebook, but either no one would respond or people would just feel sorry for me feeling the way that I do. About two years ago I came to the conclusion that if I am having a really bad day, a down in the dumps, want to lock myself in my room day there is nothing I can do about it and no one to talk to about it. I don't have anyone near by that I can call friend enough to have them rescue me. No neighbors, no ward member, and no even my family can be there so I can call and talk with me. Of course I know that they have lives, they have kids or their own and also jobs that they work hard at. Every time I think on this too much it gets me really down, like to tears down. I long for friends, but I am also starting to realize that this probably isn't in the cards for me. I need to be more like Matt and not care that I don't have any friends. Maybe this hurts someone's feelings and maybe no one would care.
There will be no random acts of kindness for me because no one knows I exist. Sure they invite me to things, but they also invite thirty other people to talk to and laugh with. I know most of this falls on my shoulders because I am not willing to butt into other people's conversations. Really if you aren't talking at me I feel really bad about putting in my two bits.
I am just being selfish and wishing that I had more when I should just shut up and be happy that I have three kids of good health who are happy to play with each other and never tell me that they wish they could play with friends. I have a husband who works and brings home money for us to buy food and pay the bills. We have a house that keeps us warm and the bugs out (mostly, somehow those little critters always sneak in). I am not wanting a flood of attention because I tell people how I feel, that I tend to me unhappy with where I am, but I do want to feel that connection with people around me.
Okay, I got that out. Now I can say that I have typed my option and frustrations. Go back to your daily lives now. Hope your day has been going well and that it will still go well after you leave my post. I appreciate you taking the time to read my blah blah blah